definition of life

Today on the way back home, and usually the flow of the ideas comes to me exactly when i drive my car fast on Emirates road, i was thinking about the definition of life, came cross lots of sentences, then i thought what if i asked people? each will give me a unique and different answer, that can change regarding time and the experience he is having. its very interesting and what makes it more exciting is what if i asked artists? doctors? athletics? each can refer to his interest, profession or career. when i arrived home i sent a message to a person who is a choreographer i know him recently and never met. i wrote (been trying to find a definition for 'life' today, life is art. and few hours later i received this very beautiful message from him:

 

definition of life...hmmmmm...no sooner have you got one it changes....thats its pleasure, its mystery, its joy...its like a spoke of a wheel....the colours of a rainbow.....its definition is written on every human face on the planet, their loves , their desires, their hopes and fears....its definition is simple and it is complex...it is black and it is white...it is alive and it is dead.....you can see it and you cannot....life IS.

what is your definition? can you create a creative one? how many definitions can we have? am sure all are counted and important at least to the person who invented them, today i decided to adopt all your definitions as a project for my coming documentary film :-) inshalah

thank God September is gone

As much as i waited for September as much as i regretted that and hatted the month when it came. i cant remember anything nice happened at it! not to mention what happened exactly because many things happened, but one of the important things comes to my mind now is my birthday.. no party.. alone.. disappointment from Reindeer which is the number one in my life.. the other best two friends and whom i spent most of August with them also forgot to greet me even.. thats enough. i dont want to sound negative. but it kept followed by many other bad events.

anyway those things changed me a lot and got me stronger than before.


the shock is now in October, again i was looking for it day by day and i had a hope that it will be much better, its the month of the good events, the start of the night life, concerts and festivals season. the weather gets better as well. but again those bad event kept following and just with me or my family but almost everyone i know.

so today when i heard about the bad news of today, first thing i did is to say 'FUCK!' from the deepest of my heart. but then i said 'THANKS TO GOD' am sure everything will be better soon, as things does not last bad always.. am not sure if i am right but if we lose hope then we are lost!

am still sure whatever bad events will happen tomorrow or the days after, happiness will come over somehow, as well as good days. i decided to face everything with a cold heart and a rational mind, i will try to fix, solve, improve, help, change, calm down, accept, work and surround my self with what they call 'positiveness'

and i believe its a time God wants to make me a better and stronger person 

i hope i dont lose this soon..  

Kokorico

You might wonder what Kokorico means, and you might seen it or heard about it recently. the story of the name is that i love Jean Paul Gualrier perfumes and i always follow the news if there are any new perfumes. Kokorico will be launched soon in 2012. once i heard the name i fell in love with it. it has a music when i hear it, rhythmic pronunciations and its unique. Kokorico is a french word for cock crying. i discovered that after i fell in love with the name and after i saw the perfume campaign. energetic model who is trying to express with his sharp face expressions and his tap dancing like a hot blooded Spanish or south American guy, black feathers, drums and strong beats, dark theme but full of energy and motivation, sexy، strong and obvious. red and black.

Its exactly what i wanted from Gualtier after la male the sexy light blue body after i smelled it on Franz. and earlier when i smelled Gualtier2 on my second love Reindeer in london summer 2010 when he had that small tester bottle, he was wearing it after shower everyday before we go out and discover London. and i was always wondering where is this amazing smell coming from! and when i cuddled him once a day i smelled that strongly and clearly, it was on him, that lovely attachment between Reindeer and the perfume is still in my memory and wherever i wear that perfume i remember Reindeer. strange how smells can attach to some people. we love them and we taste that love with that smell. That is why i'm kind of so grateful to Jean Paul because he gave me a nice sense in my love stories. even back to my German friend Franz, when he visited Dubai and i met him first time when i picked him up from his hotel with my car, he was wearing La male, all i wanted to get deep with this man once i smelled it, that warm body and the perfume matched perfectly together, a very gentle Bavarian man who speaks with his heart. perfumes made lots of good memories to me. because even before Gualtier i loved Polo explorer on my first love story which was with that New Zealand guy T who gave a sense for that smell, i used to get crazy when i smell that perfume, but now after about 3 years away it doesn't excite me that much.

back to Kokorico, i hope that the smell will not disappoint me, and i hope that someone new appear in my life and surprise me with it when i get closer to his chest to cuddle him.

finally i built my own world

Yes, finally and after few months of thinking if i should start bloging or not, today i announce to internet society my own space in this massive net. The world where i will be expressing myself honestly, frankly and deeply. Its the place that none of my real life friends, classmates and family should know about it. Its the place i wont feel shame or embarrassed or even afraid to share anything. Its the place where i share with the world how gay i am and how my life is looking like in a place you might discover it soon through my posts. Its a place where i can share my interests, art, creativity and everything i think its beautiful in the world. After all, its a place where i feel safe, relaxed and happy.. hopefully.